Shalom Mishpachah! I just want to say that last week I learned a lot after seeking advice and counsel from elders. One of the most shocking and devastating facts I learned about myself is the origin of my name. I always thought that I was cursed because of my given birth name 'Kyha' when it's always been the other way around due to origin and meaning. The shock was that I already had a Hebrew name with the correct spelling. I am still in shock. The ones who knew what my name meant knew exactly how to pronounce it and I didn't have to tell them anything when they met me. The meaning of the name, I never knew but now that I know it explains everything as to why one of my sisters hated my name and therefore hated my existence. It also explains how a lot of gentiles (Caucasians) know how to pronounce it and know it's origin and why I get the stares after they say my name as if they are waiting on a reaction or something. It's devastating that they knew and I never did. My aunt didn't even know the meaning when she named me. I am still processing the advise and counsel but this was one of the things told to me that stood out. I will say this...when you pray for truth and understanding and guidance...you will receive it. Be ready for it! All praises and esteem to Yahuah in the name of Yahusha Ha'Mashiach!