Day of atonement 2022
It’s a hard thing, atoning for your sins, because that means you have to face them, there is no more denial, there is no more stuffing. You have to come face to face with those demons and then walk away(never to return to them). Facing yourself and taking a hard look at yourself can be done through the strength of Yahusha Ha’mashiach (Phil. 4:13). It’s interesting that to atone we are called to fast, not commanded to, but called to. It’s interesting that we are to afflict ourselves in this way, to bring ourselves to such a low and vulnerable state before The Most High Yah. In a conversation with a sleep brew who asked about atonement a statement was made that really touched me. She talked about death and how when losing someone close to you like your child, that it is a very humbling experience, that you have to lean on Yahuah for. She talked about while going through something so serious you don’t even want to eat. It hit me like, wow, how true is that. I know that there are times, outside of losing someone, where I’ve been so upset I’ve stopped eating. When something is that close to us and that serious it seems that cutting off food becomes automatic. Some may think well if it isn’t commanded then why fast? I admit that, that thought flashed through my mind. “You mean I can atone and eat!”🤦🏽♀️ But I submit to you, why not fast? Why not come to your heavenly father at your most humblest state. Not only are we to die daily, but I feel that atonement is a deeper death, a gutting out of the old man to make amends(changes/improvements) to the new man. Being the living sacrifice of Elohiym’s refining fire. If you have not seen or don’t know about the refiners fire, I urge you to research it. Looking at how gold is placed in the fire but not consumed to destruction is amazing, watching as it is pressed down but not destroyed is wowing. I want to be that gold and Yahuah that fire. I know that through this journey there will be moments of pain and I will feel like I am in a fire and times where I’ll be pressed down but not destroyed, all in the name of Yahusha Ha’mashiach and that’s alright with me!, because I know that I will come out a shinny new jewel of Yah’s. I will be His ‘jew’ and He will be my ‘El’
HalleluYah!
There were verses/chapters that were sent to me after I wrote this that really hit and brought me back to what I had just wrote a few hours before. Isaiah 58:1-14(the whole chapter) and Colossians 3:5-10; However, that whole chapter is amazing and should be read!
